Part of realizing you're gay, or bi, or trans, or non-binary, or anything other than cisgender and heterosexual is accepting you’re different—and somewhat separated—from the majority.Many young LGBTQ people hide their authentic selves from friends, family, and classmates before they come out, which is often an incredibly isolating experience.That's not healthy." But at the time I was oblivious.
This sounds really gross and pervy, but I remember one time we were all hanging out in someone's bedroom and everyone else was making out, doing "couple-y" things. I remember feeling very isolated because I had no one to experience any kind of sexuality with. This carried on until I was 16, when I started going out to gay bars in my hometown. I'd just sit in a corner feeling unbelievably shy and nervy until I'd drunk enough to get up and maybe sit at the bar. So I'd wait for a guy to approach me, and it would probably end with me going back to his flat to have sex.
I made myself move because I knew it would force me to meet new people.
I thought otherwise I'd end up stuck on my own.
But again, I felt isolated because I was living in student accommodation with five straight guys I didn't identity with.
So the behaviors I'd already displayed at home just continued in a different city, with much less parental supervision.
Madonna once sang, "I found myself in crowded rooms, feeling so alone," a sentiment many LGBTQ people can relate to.